Friday, December 30, 2011

head swirling in this new cloud

last night didnt get much sleep, because anne came over and we hang out til 6am hahaha.
then i had to go off to lab to check on my cells and such.

this time i went myself and i was so prepared and sure of myself and my labwork, that for once, I am not afraid of who i meet there. I walked confidently knowing how much I've done, and what I need to do. no more of being stressed or running away. somehow i feel this is a significant achievement. a step closer to graduating.

another source of my muddled thoughts is this boy.
he's a 1994, going to debut with a new SM group called EXO. His name is Kai.
he worries me so much because at times he looks like Taemin. its his jaw i think, and his lips.

i'm guessing he is Taemin's friend, the one taem talked abt long ago. He had a friend who he's close with, another trainee, about the same age. aish, this boy who shares taem's life, i am intrigued and at the same time jealous of him.

the SBS gayo daejun 2011, exo havent exactly debuted but kai shared the stage with taem and eunhyuk (suju). it bothers me, and yet i felt this transition was already written in history long before its coming. i guess it was just meant to be.

anyways, he's being promoted as the dancer in EXO. being promoted a bit...too much? haha. who cares? all's good. the music background is awesome though. i like to play it in the background. cant wait for the full song, and for them to debut finally.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

my weight management programme experience

Recently i got a coupon voucher to try out a weight management programme. i wont name it so they cant sue me kekeke. anyways, i was given fair warning from Anne regarding how they operate and how they lure you to join and pour tons and tons of money into these programs.

anyways, i know myself and i'm pretty sure i can withstand the pressure. my main goal was to experience it. i dont have any bad predispositions before i start the free treatment, so to keep an open view on it. i know i didnt want to enroll but was open to the idea of giving it as a gift to close family if it were really good.

anyways, they said i get a 3hours session for free. you register first for the session and they will assign you a weight management expert. they will supervise your progress throughout the programme.

here's the run-down. basically 1st hour is they lecture you on your weight and goals. this is not a bad thing. its very informative for those who have never learned anything on weight gain and its reasons, or even those who have basic information, as it gives alot of info.

2nd hour is where the treatment takes place.

3rd hour the haggle you into joining their program for the long run. (cheers!)

anyways, the free treatment session i got was like this.
started off with background check up. weight and height taken. they then tell you to strip (im so not comfortable with this) and put u in a towel and off into the steam room. im not sure how long this took but i was miserable in there. basically they are miniature steam rooms, separated by glass (tinted) for each customer. and we are told to sit in there and sweat it out. apparently the point of this is to awaken our metabolism and warm our bodies. the person in the stall beside me had to go out twice, and i was struggling to maintain in there longer than her. keeping my face buried in the face towel they gave, i could barely breath and i waited for the time to finish.

second part of the treatment, they put some sort of salt on it. they said its nano technology that is easier to penetrate to the fat layer below the skin. you have to lie butt naked on the table though, except for a disposable panty, that was awkward. she was talking and i was answering and im pretty sure a piece of salt flew into my mouth because the saltiness was unbearable for awhile i waited for it to dissipate. then they cover you with this plastic film, and then this grey huge blanket with wires and further more with towels. this is the infrared treatment, used to increase metabolism and open lymphnodes. forcing me to sweat summore for another 30mins. gosh, that was a longggggg 30mins. i was okay the first 15mins, and she came back, readjusted me, wiped sweat of my face (cos i cant move my arms under the blanket) and told me to give it another 15mins. i wanted to cry, singing replay to distract myself from the discomfort. it was pure torture. i'd give half hour jogging session a go rather than go through that again. i felt weak and nauseous afterwards. she told me to sit it out before showering.

the there was one last part, the electrical muscle stimulation therapy. basically using electric to stimulate the muscles (easy right?) and making it like ur muscle has gone thru hours of exercise. they wrapped it around my problem areas (which they determined by taking measurements while i was butt naked again =.= awkwardddddd) which are arms, thighs and tummy. i actually liked this part. i was exhausted from the other two, and could easily doze off with the vibrations. unfortunately this is the last part, thus she takes this time to bother me with all the details of registration, payment methods, and the many different programmes that she can get me in. i was so annoyed they had to ruin the only good part =.=

after which i was told to dress and go to the consultation room again where she haggled me to register as member for the next half hour. it was super annoying. i told her no like a gazillion times and she refused to have it. i categorically refused to give any card details or bank that i'm using, and stated clearly that i have no source of income. at some point she was practically raising her voice at me and arguing that i am cheating her. me? cheating her? wait a sec, i'm still the customer right? swt =.=" in the end, she finally let me go, quickly ushering me out the door. talk about giving the cold shoulder lmao.

it was a rough few hours. i spent 1-5pm in there and was famished by the end. maybe because of dehydration? maybe because of all the arguing? lmao. somehow in the back of my mind i kind of agree all that trouble was not worth the free treatment session at all, if it were not for my first experience.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

weird dreams

weird dream

last nite i slept around 1 and woke at 8. then i re-set the alarm to wake at 9 hahaha. but usually between these times is when i have the most colorful, eventful dreams.

okay they are weird dreams.

anyways i dont remember everything. but i do remember scrambling around doing kpop stalking. i'm pretty sure i was aiming for someone else (now awake, i'm rationalizing it as SHINee). but we were in an opera house. not sure who i was stalking with, but there were several. anyways, we could go only so far in front, but what do u know, we were right behind Beast. not all members. i'm guessing diba was with me cos i pointed out yeoseobie to her. everyone went crazy when he turned and waved. i was far right and i looked at the far right member. it was Doojoon. he looked and me and winked. hahaha it was cute, even in my dream.

Doo Joon

then i was on a bus. there was this tall lanky chinese guy. (now awake, i recognize him as the guy who does my glasses at alamanda hahaha). anyways he was hitting on me, and i was wary at first but i got comfortable around him after awhile. i fell asleep on the bus and when woke he was gone. turned around the back seat raiza was happily chatting away with him. i was annoyed straight away at how fickle he is. i guess even in dream land im insecure =.= ridiculous.

and then i was in this darkened big room. looks like a mall after hours. we were amongst bright paintings (looked like they were for sale), propped on chairs or on the floor, not hanging. talking animatedly with friends. i recognize one as Fiza, a biomed student i know from the previous batch. its been a long while since i last hang out with her, i used to back when we were in the same class. she's very lively and fun to be around. anyways i did see her at IBS a few weeks ago, at the surau. she is doing her masters and working in the lab below mine. i guess thats why she made a cameo in my dream. i should give her a call ^^

any ways we heard a ruckus in the other room and we all rushed over to look. there were many by-standers. i cant see much actually with all the people. not sure if it was an accident, a murder, or just a fight. i guess i've been watching too much violence on tv lately. we heard police was coming by to check and immediately we were worried (these were not normal police in my dreams, they had more like a ring-wraith feel to them and we shouldnt be caught in a place and time like that). so we rushed back to our painting selling place and acted normally. they stared at us as they passed us to the ruckus area. we discussed whether we seemed fishy or not, but i realized the display lights were off! obviously we have left the area for longer than i thought. it was disconcerting.

and suddenly i was away (i guess i ran) and was in another room. it was full white. feels like a hospital. and there was some one sick. they said she had campak (chicken pox?). she had to wear this weird mesh thing that covered her whole body including her face. they said it was so she can breathe easier and see through the mesh.
white mesh

i remember i tried on the mesh face thing too. it was the weirdest creation i've seen in my dreams haha.

anyways, that sums up my weird dream for today. its alot of gibberish i know, but i wanted to type it out. hahaha. maybe next time i'll share another one of my non-sense dreams~

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

I will be better.

when I first listened to SHINee The First Japanese Album, I was immediately attracted to 'Better'. It just gave a feel, indescribable. I felt a pull towards the song that I cant pinpoint why.

I kept listening to this song over and over, liking the feelings it conjures. Then one day Diba pointed out a glaring fact about this song. I was surprised it never occurred to me. This song sounds like it was made for DBSK.

DBSK was my first kpop bias. I followed them til they went serious into Japan promotions. I couldnt stand the fact that Japan has taken over them so eventually I broke free of DBSK. and sadly to say I was super disappointed in their break up. It was a great loss to the Kpop community. I felt they are the greatest thing to happen to Kpop.

in 2008, I eventually moved on to SHINee. It wasnt much of a change, they had a similar feel. But somehow SHINee seemed more perfect for me. SHINee themselves are not perfect, they are flawed in their own ways, but also have their strengths too, and somehow they mirror exactly what I want and need from Kpop. Therefore since then I have stayed with SHINee, never able to break away from them. Even when eventually they made their migration to Japan too, I still cannot leave my SHINee babies. They are my reason to dance and be happy and to be alive (a totally other story, will get back on that).

So this song, which is sung by SHINee, but I felt a distance to it, something was missing...and to realize its because DBSK was meant to sing it. Listening to it now, I can totally understand why this song would be perfect for DBSK to sing. SHINee sounds great too, but listening carefully, you can hear their immaturity in terms of experience and vocals. I'm no expert but I do believe DBSK would do this song a great justice. But DBSK is no more... and somehow somewhere this song was passed on to SHINee. It doesnt sound like a song that SHINee normally sings, but I think they pulled it off anyways. It still sounds great and feel the longing and stirred emotions when I listen to it, only now I'm confused who is causing it really.

I guess we will never know since this song was just never meant to be.


Tuesday, December 20, 2011

eggs, party, xanderland and shinee-ing weekend! and life there after~

okayyyyyy so run down of what happened the past few days.
we had our first egg party!!!!
this is the decoration boxes that i made. picture courtesy of janics. the color coordination was done by anne, and she found this font. its called Cheri ^^ i think its super cute. added lights that anne bought from thailand. hahahaha it almost seems like anne's boxes =.= No! hahahaha i did the labor and its my idea anyway kekeke. okay, i allow her to share the credit ^^

but the end result is super nice, and it sure gave off an egg party feel. at night, the light came off to perfection giving our party and homely feel. loved it much! ^^
i'll hunt more night photos later.

in the end we all decided to sleepover (except janics =.= hahahaha janics u r not forgiven!!)
BBQ from the evening, played games all night, celebrated anne's bday with a whopping cake, then watched tv together, followed by a game of truth or dare in pajamas XD it was an epic party~!

the next day we were all tired, basically lazed around the house til noon, left for cheras for xander's solo showcase. it was alot of fun. they had this idea to give xander a bunch of tiffany-snsd's bottle of vita. this was to tease him for answering tiffany (for admired female idol) at the press conference the day before. when we gave it to him in a non stop series, he was so overwhelmed and blushing and happy XD its so fun to tease xander kekekeke. he reached out to shake out hands ^^

this is picture of the egg family after the xander date ^^ pic courtesy of janics. happy happy family, plus 4 unlaid ducks kekeke (inside joke ^^) dont we look like a nice happy family? ^^ eggs should have another gathering! its so much fun!

oh btw atiq ordered this:
T.T uuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhh its shinee's the first (japanese album). you know, after history of dbsk going japan and rarely resurfacing out of japan and then sudden break up, i have my doubts about my baby shinee going there. it was really very hard for me to even support the entire idea. i couldnt listen to the japan tracks, i felt shinee was taken from me T.T i know i know i need to support them no matter what! but it hurts to feel like they might be lost to me. sighhh

anyways to see the box set was so much pain!!!! i miss shinee so much it hurts! i look my baby taemin on the cover with his lovely pout kekeke. i finally listened to the songs. i really like better. i dunno, the melody really gets to me, and (after reading the translations), the lyrics feel like shinee's (taemin's?) message to me (hahahahahahaaha perasan much!). i do want to lean on shinee, they are my saviour, and after so many years, its a blessing to still love them so much.
anyways, continue with my life after the weekend, i had to do so much work for my fyp =.=

trust me, it may be small and seemingly effortless, but its really tiring this culture work
but truthfully, i really dont mind. i feel this is as good as it gets for a fyp XD so i thank God everyday for this opportunity hehe~

anyways, after my super long hours in the lab, i finish at 5, stop by alamanda for dba's mcD, came back at 6 and started with my sewing work. i finished 3 different things, and then worked on epsilon tshirts distribution. finishing that, i finally let myself rest. omg it 2am! i've been working for 7hours out of the house, and continue for another 7hours at home! i need rest!

but i had to wake at 8am to get to class. ethnopharmaco today had a discussion/debate assignment. not really worried about debating, but i was worried about what little i knew. thankfully, the title was not bad. EP/TCM should be fully supported by the government. We fought on the opposition side. I thought i spoke okay, gave my point, thankfully didnt stutter too much. then 11-1 i was back in the lab to finish my treatment of the cells. OMG i'm done with all seeding and treatment!! now only left reading mtt assay on friday and i'm done! well almost, done, last step is actually inverted microscopy at MAKNA for the chosen cell line and compound, but thats not til mid-january. also i must finish all my IC50 calculations.

yeah, i know i lost you with all my scientific jibberish kekeke. well, i'm just glad i have everything up to date and well in hand.

i also have a job interview on the 4th january. my dad's birthday haha. who knows? it might bring me luck ^^

Friday, December 16, 2011

Working out the chinks

Lol well no one wants to hear me rant about how tired, busy, exhausted, hectic, etc., etc., my life is yet again right? hahaha well its true. i feel so tired all the time, more like because i'm not getting enough sleep and also because of how i place my work ^^

I wanted to do so much yesterday, then i was burdened with a lab report for PKK and also a bring home assignment by Dr. Latifah for ethno class, that I was devastated. reached home before 6 i got straight to working non-stop til midnight on the 2 extra home work. okay, not exactly non-stop. i did walk it off everytime i feel i cant stand it anymore (which happens like every hour), and at one point (8pm) i actually walked off, sat on couch in front of tv and zoned out for half an hour before i can start again hahahaha. but overall, i finished typing everything for the ethno thing, and also finished my whole lab report XD

means for now i only have to concern myself with my lab work, fixing my esmp credit hours and also finishing the ethno work. need to research more for my store and also maybe a new sewing machine some day. not to mention need to pack a secret santa's gift and also finish my egg's party boxes by today. got to go to fac to return notes to Ee Ling by 10:30, 11:30 need to do treatment for my 2 cell plates, then continue with MTT assay at 1pm for the 2 other cells plates i did on monday.....uwarrrrghhhhh!!! i'll be done by 5pm hopefully!

and my weekend is filled with egg's party on saturday, and xander's show on sunday XD

some where some one please help me finish all my work so i can actually enjoy the other aspects of my life XD

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Taking on projects

I've been really pondering about the shop project. Thinking of the many things I want to put in there. omg, there's just so much work to finish, not to mention the products to be sold. and i have to deal with the epsilon shirts, and auditions, not to mention finishing my final year project and exams are in 3 weeks, I havent began studying yet, and everyday I'm gaining weight!!! I think currently my life is just so out of order!

But on the plus side, nothing is severely behind schedule (as during my november breakdown, as I have told you), yesterday I went to class and got all my Ethno attendance settled, met with my mentor for FYP and figured out my schedule for the next month, and surprisingly I am adept to all the new info (although slightly behind on the work), and then went to my PKK class, and it's finishing too (no more attendance to worry, only the finals to think about). Today is wednesday. i dont have any lab work to do til Friday, but I do have a Japanese final assignment to pass up today. I'll finish it during my free time now, since my PKK class is finished, and print it out and pass up later in the afternoon. Go to my FYP class later at 2, and sign and leave early and go home and settle as much about the shirts and auditions as I can, before finishing my party boxes! and of course, today will start my exercise routine. I swear if it rains again, I am going to do dance at home =.= because I am seriously packing on the pounds. =(

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Alternate project: Skirt

I dont really wear many skirts. I just realized how easy they were to make so decided to make one. I picked a polka dot blue. dunno why. i thought it would look nice, apparently it doesnt. i'll try several other fabrics first before showcasing them to sell =)))

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Project: Crochet flowers

Status: 100% done

When researching about ways and things to crochet, i came across these cute fun things that i can do. including flowers. there are a ton others, but i'll start small (haha, also since there's no way of finishing the hell lot of other things on my list T.T). anyways, this is what it looks like.

Pretty simple flowers. I made 2 of every color. Only 3 colors, and I was pretty tired with it. i want to try out other designs too, and for that I might update this page. But for now, I want to continue with finishing the project list first yeah~

[111211] so i experimented with this a little more. I liked a certain flower type i saw on yt. tried it with left over green yarn.

here's what it looks like half done. the petals taking shape.

i had to replace with blue since my green ran out. this is the end look.

i used my pretty light yellow color yarn to make a big flower.

also tried to make other sizes and types. i rather like the effect. can be made into decor, head gear, etc.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

By the skin on my teeth

i have had many close calls these past few semesters. ever since my new lease on life (aka my stubborness to get back to reality), i pushed one too many boundaries and often find myself in bad situations. i always have a very optimistic view on things, therefore I had a feeling I can scrape by everytime. But sometimes, close calls are just a tad too close for comfort.

take for example my november.

after doing teentop project, we decided to take a rest, and didnt focus on anything new for a while. i was forever delaying my fyp presentation too, and not studying for tests. then came wg project with deadline 30th nov. genting performance on 29th. fyp presentation on the 30th. test for metabolism on the 30th. then MOA weekend on 2nd and 3rd Dec. and 4th Dec performance for KTO. it was hell week, and nothing couldve prepared me for it.

for days i didnt sleep trying to figure things out, working as fast as i can, on sanity that bordered on breaking.

i just did the performance, and did the video editing, and did the presentation and did the test. i didnt think. i did.

cant say it was my best work, but it was done. under the consequences and with the stress levels involved, I'm actually proud of myself for having made it through the week.

I was actually applauded for doing pretty well at the fyp presentation. I cant celebrate that though. it was nearly all not my work, so I feel bad if I were to take credit for anything more than the 10minutes presentation that I did.

Also, i had a bad feeling of failing miserably for metabo test. its enough that Dr.Asmah doesnt like me =.= (which is entirely not my fault. she asked to change the schedule, but I cant accomodate, how is that my fault? why change the schedule in the first place? boo!) anyways, she declared in class that anyone who got score less than 40 (passing mark) for Test 2, must see her to get a borang (not sure for what, but apparently you have to inform your PA). not only that, the average marks for the class was on 56. giving no hope for any positive outcome. I was like, oh crap, I have to see her. and not only that, I have to apologize for bad marks. I was so sure that I got less than 40, I never thought of any other alternative =.=
then I braced myself and just went up to her room. it was locked, she wasnt in. i walked around the faculty and I saw she posted results for test 2. and I got 50!!! hahahaha (insert totally unself conscious jiggy here). wheeeeee! not only did I not fail, I actually passed! I dont have to see her! and for my first test I found I got 80% too. hahaha not bad for a student that she doesnt even like =p

but seriously, this is no reason to continue on this way. I have time now and I should carry on my life with more semblance to a balanced lifestyle. I cannot possibly keep surviving this way. although its very tempting.... sigh.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Creating a market

I've always been thinking about how to make some extra money to fund my hobbies. I know my most expensive hobby is Kpop, next in line being Epsilon haha. I use alot of money and dont have a means to pay back all that I'm using.

I'm thinking of creating an online cosplay shop for Kpop. I guess my primary target customers would be Malaysians haha. Dunno if this is a good idea yet. Making costumes take a lot of time and money. And not sure people are willing to pay for the costumes yet lol.
We'll see where it goes, if ever~

Welcoming the end of the year

Its well into the first week of December already and I have yet to get all my things done. I'm so worried about having a gazillion things not done before the year ends. Not that anything will matter if I dont get these personal goals done, but I feel as if I have achieved less this year if I dont try =p

I always had this problem of over-achieving, but I cant help myself, I like pushing myself. It makes me feel useful, like I have a purpose in life. I know it seems ridiculous to assess myself based on what I do, but I really do believe that our choices/actions define our existence, and so I want to make myself count ^^

tick tock tick tock. I feel the time slipping away. I wish I can hold on to it. Make time freeze. Because I can never get enough of it. No matter how I tell myself I have no hold on life, that it does not matter to me, the truth is, I'm so in love with being alive.

its different, you know. to live and to be alive. I hope I do learn to cherish it properly.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

A brief?

Its 1am on wednesday/thursday midnight. I'm super tired from all the deadlines I've been trying to make. I only wanted to come and give a short briefing on all that transpired, but I'm so tired, I dont think I;ll make it tonight haha.

Off to HUKM tomorrow for my doctor's appointment, and then evening class.
But otherwise I have alot more time to sleep now! so good night! have a nice rest. Sleep is so heavenly!!!


Monday, November 21, 2011

Wearing my [breezy dress project] to class today

Last night i finished this project and i thought i'd wear it to class today.

Just a plain dress, striped on top, and blue on the bottom.
Paired it with a white jacket and a simple belt.

Another view

This is what it would look like without a jacket.

Another weekend project [breezy dress]

technically i am super behind on all my work, but i decided to put in some time this weekend to finish this little side project.

some time ago, my friend wore this simple dress that caught my eye. not so much the style, but more cos i felt like i could recreate it ^^ so i kept it in mind til when i want to sew a dress project.

the base, i used an old singlet that i have (or maybe 4). i made the shirt pocket out of the excess fabric, and sewed on the skirt. added a dress pocket too. this is just a recreation of my friend's dress so technically there is no idea put in here. XD

This is what it looks like when it's done.

I'm gonna wear it to class tomorrow, so i'll update a pic of me wearing it ^^ can't wait!

21/11/2011: I wear it to class, see here!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Juggling my work n 'other' life

My life is separated into two. My real life in which i work/study and do my final year project and go for exams and be a good student, the straight forward, scientific thinking, worker that has no life. And my 'other' life in which i am the real me, the dancing, artistic me that loves life and breathes passion.

I am two different people, put into one. And sometimes both lives get caught up, and i cant handle it. There's just too much to do with very little time. 24 hours is just not enough.

Friday, November 18, 2011

[Announcement] Hiatus til December

Okay, i have to put everything on hold (again!) til the end of november. have too many things planned i cant even name them all in my calendar =.= trying to work through everything as best i could. ^^ hope all goes well!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Project: Decoration boxes

Status: 60% done

I had this idea when I visited Seoul tower in South Korea. There was a pretty gift shop at the base of the tower and they decorated it with many boxes with letters. Given that boxes cost more then they should =.= I decided to make my boxes from scratch.

I bought this cheap plain white cardboard at a local stationary store. Just need pencil, scissors, some double tape or glue.

My layout for the box is another box i already had, and opened up to get the layout. I just traced it.

Then cut out the shape.

and i build it into boxes like these

well I've already done 6 box and wrapped them up with colored paper. I just finished another 2 boxes to complete the 8 set. I'm still wondering about the color theme though, but i'll figure it out some time. I may be using it as decor for an upcoming party ^^

Project: Diet Scrap book

Status: 18% done

This I've been thinking about doing since a long time ago. When I'm dieting, I cant think about anything else, and I research so much into it I wonder where I can pour out all this information. But I also dont want to lose all this useful info over the years, so I came to a conclusion.... make a scrap book about Diet! ^^

Well i'm using this old pretty book that I got from seventeen magazine japan back in 2008. it was too pretty to use but really i had no use of it except taking space =.=
So gonna convert this into my diet scrap book.

I've printed pics and tidbit infos, and cut it up to insert into my scrap book.

This info has to be sorted through and stuck into the scrap book.

Page 1 is DONE!!! hahaha kicked off to a great start yeah~
The other pages will continue next.....

Monday, November 14, 2011

Project: Crochet scarf

Status: 100% done

when I learned how to crochet, i figured the easiest project to start with is a scarf. well, cos its flat and straight haha. my friend is going to korea this winter, so i figured i'll make the scarf for her.

The yarn i'm using is green and blue. A crochet hook and normal scissors.

I use double crochet for this scarf, 2 lines for each color and interchange. It looks like this.

I made it slightly longer than 1 meter long, and around 15cm wide. I'm currently trying to figure out what to do about the endings/trimmings.

[111207] decided i would elongate it to 2meters without any endings/trimmings. did it yesterday and it's finished finally!!

This is what it looks like on the floor...

And i should find time to take a pic wearing it ^^

Project: Small plushy dolls

Status: 100% done

I had an idea to make plushie toys. My first instinct is to make Taemin plushie hahaha! Second instinct is to make a Luffy plushy gehehe. I know, i'm weird. Anywayssss i figured i better start small. Try to achieve easy 2D uncomplicated plushies first, and work my way up from there. if it is possible to make good quality small plushies, then i might upgrade to full scale plushies next year haha. Be prepared to receive plushies from me as gifts hehehe XD

Anyways, i bought green felt. My sister wants frogs haha. So i experimented on a super easy shape first. A ginger bread man. I know its weird to see it green (try to imagine it brown yeah?)
It was not really well done. as i said, i was just experimenting.

Second, i experimented with a basic frog figure. Again i was sketching roughly only, so the plushy didnt come out very well done. But safe to say it can be achieved.

I made a proper block for the frog plushy figure already. Using cardboard, i drew out the figure and cut it out.

[111210] wheeeee so i finally took the time to get a move on this project. made a better cut on the fabric. its still super annoying to sew on with sewing machine, i think cos im not using felt fabric (sigh).

i also made super cute finishings with some white and black felt i bought from daiso, to make the eyes and mouth. i was excited with how cute it was i even made a bow tie for it ^^

how does it look? (lying down view)

i know i know, dashing right?

[111211] continued with this project. planning on making a whole family of frogs, but havent gone around to it. now, stuck on this cute pillow version of plushie ^^ hahaha i think it's adorable!

Project: Alter Blundd Shirt

Current State: COMPLETE

Hi, meet Blundd ^^

Blundd in Anne's bear. She brings him every where and takes pictures of his activities. This project is to make a shirt for Blundd. It's not from scratch though, the material is altered from a dog costume.

And ta daaaaa~~ this is how it looks like when he wears it ^^

He must be really happy to wear it cos he is practically dancing~ XD

This is just a small side project to help my friend, but it seems fun to make clothes for our teddies. I might make another in the future for other bears in the house ^^

[List] Year End 2011 Projects

As many of my acquaintances must know, I am someone who is unable to sit still and do nothing at any point of time. Its not like I am tireless, merely I have a love of doing and finishing things. Its a great high to finish a project, but I guess this trait is not shared by all. That is why I am known to always have a project in mind. For the end of this year, I feel it is about time I finish some projects that I started some time this year. Well, I feel if you put a deadline on things, you are more likely bound to finish them ^^ I will list down my projects that I want to finish by the end of the year [and link each to their respective progress pages] and keep updating this page with my overall progress. Not long til year ends! Wish me luck ^^

1) Project: Decoration boxes
Percent complete: 60%

2) Project: Photobook
Percent complete: 3%

3) Project: Diet Scrap book
Percent complete: 18%

4) Project: Crochet scarf

5) Project: Small plushy dolls

6) Project: Secret [77Q]
Percent complete: 10%

7) Project: Chiffon dress
Percent complete: 3%

8) Project: Beanie hat
Percent complete: 3%

9) Project: Alter Blundd shirt

10) Project: Crochet flowers

Update 14/11: Okay the percentage done doesnt look too good right now. Roughly 7 weeks til year ends. I might as well finish some projects that are nearly done ^^

Update 10/12: Finished the scarf, plushie doll and crochet flowers today! Total of 4 down haha. Still working on other projects today, might add to the list tomorrow~ We'll see!

Update 11/12: I was supposed to get working on the beanie hat today, but i got stuck on other things. i finished my skirt. it doesnt look very nice. i'm still color blind as ever. i need to try a few before i get a nice color palette i think hahahaha. anyways, i also did another version on the flower, and plushy pillow version.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

[FA] TT(niel) stalking in Malaysia (110923-110924) pt3

i decided i wanted to have a go at calling to niel. my LAST CHANCE! my friend said 'niel saranghamnida' and he smiled and waved. and she said 'come to malaysia again' (in korean) and he smiled and nodded. but my baby niel why wont u look at meeeee???

okay, basically my voice was mostly lost at the stadium, so i had this weird throaty sexy voice that i dont recognize, and calling out niel-ahhhhh saranghaeyooooo kajimaaaaa~~~ okay i was repeating this for awhile, i knew he can hear me, but he didnt turn around =((((( at one point even chunji turned to question him. cant tell what he replied though cos he refused to look back.
so sad, boo niel booooo!! *cries in the corner*

when we reached the escalator, the security moved in and formed 3 layers. so the boys went in safely. they turned and waved goodbye. niel waved at several cameras but still didnt look my way.
OMG whats wrong bb???
and off they went down the escalator. i ran around to the left just in time to see them reach downstairs and they were waving up towards the fans.

**get ready for favorite part**

i didnt bother calling out niel by this time, only left small little light of hope in my heart, and i looked down, immediately finding him below, and my heart practically jumped with me, because he suddenly miraculously looked up straight at me. a great big smile played on his face, he was practically laughing, and he continued to look at me as he waved goodbye. you wouldnt believe wat his eyes can do to you when he looks straight at you, and u can see him smiling and staring and omg i was not breathing!!! and he didnt break that gaze all the way til he walk out of sight! (okay, it was like for 5 steps only, but still!!! omg he continued looking at me for 5 whole steps! thats like achievement of the year BABY~!) omg i was totally speechless, glued to the floor and fireworks bursting inside my brain ahahaha, it was the best few seconds of my life!!! XD

after that we had to move to the other side, to see them at the passport inspection. we called to all the members, and as usual the two most reliable to wave back Ljoe and Ricky. changjo was surprisingly responsive at this point.

me and my sis decided to do fanchant. i dunno. for fun.
niel jjang chunji jjang changjo jjang ricky jjang ljoe jjang leader cap teentop jjang!!
our voices echoed on the marble walls, it sounded awesome! and can totally tell changjo was obviously listening, he held up a thumbs up.
and we continued 'eonjena teentopman saranghae yongwonhi kkeutgaji hamkkehae' and OMG changjo started dancing to the beat!! hahaha i started squealing and we never really finished that fanchant hahahaha. mianhae~

some fans asked changjo to dance, and to do aegyo. he didnt though, but he did raise up his hand.
some fans called out to niel, saying 'the present! we gave you that present!' he was totally clueless, looking bewildered almost. it wasnt until my sis intervened 'sonmul iyo! sonmul!!' and pointed at the thing he was carrying. he glanced our way and smiled as it dawned on him. he lifted and pointed at the packaged and smiled at them. hahaha i guess baby niel cant easily catch english words. he seemed so relieved to understand, it was hilarious.

chunji ricky and ljoe were further in another lane, i wasnt paying attention to them when they entered, cos i was watching niel changjo and cap.
can hear the screams and we knew FTI fans have arrived, FTI was heading down the escalator. and OMG some of the fans on my side LEFT!!! okay, i wont be judgemental here, but OMG LA TEENTOP IS STILL HERE, THEY CAN SEE YOU LEAVE OKAY?!! *grumbles*

i stayed of cos. i saw a girl holding her camera, not budging from her spot. taking a fancam i guess. i stood closer to her to catch another glimpse of niel. all the while still calling out 'teentop-ahhh~~~ im still here for you~~~ we love you!!!'
before cap wanted to go in, the 3 boys wanted to give a last wave, and cap went in first. by then FTI boys have reached and changjo and niel immediately did 90degree bow. awwww our boys so respectful to sunbaes ^^

after niel and changjo went in, i raced to the bridge area (basically the glass walled area to wave goodbye to the international departure hall below).
i positioned myself nicely, with teentop placard in front and waited for them to pass.
some of the members waved, i wasnt paying attention to who it was cos i needed niel to wave to me. he waved to ppl on my left =.= and walked nearly out of view, so i ran to the right wall to see him again.
okay this was very brief, but when he looked up, i swear i saw recognition on his face. more of a 'ahhhh u again, noona are u following me?' look, hahahaha. aigooo niel baby dont hate me its not easy following u u know??

hahaha he did give a last wave XD thanks darling~ and off they went to the other side. they were rushing faster this time, i guess cos they were pretty late. can see some fans down there following them. annoyed. those-crazy-money-loaded-fan-who-can-afford-plane-tickets =.= haha they better not scare off my teentop babies~

anyways i hope this fanaccount never reaches niel. if he never did connect the dots, i hope he never will and just remember me as the dancing fangirl from epsilon, not the crazy fangirl with the huge placard and especially not the crazy fangirl who follows him everywhere he goes XD

since you are obviously reading for niel, haha ill just describe him. well he is tall, taller than me yay! ^^ and he looks great real life, well exactly like what you see on tv, minus the make up. unlike make-up-niel who grabs attention with his luscious smackers, airport-non-make-up-niel its so easy to be mesmerized by his eyes. ^^ he doesnt do anything to create attention to himself, while amidst crazy stalking fans, but he is quick to receive gifts. i wish i knew that earlier i would give him the cd sighhh.

niel is also easily alarmed by crazy fans, unlike some of the other members, he moves closer to the members (for protection?) haha and its not like he deliberately asks cap for help, more like cap feels inclined to protect niel XD i am suddenly shipping this couple wth? but definitely can see his eyes darting anxiously around him whenever the idol circle is pushed smaller. (seriously ljoe and chunji are able to walk so bravely forward =.=)

well, i guess thats all, thanks for reading!!

gosh i miss niel~

[FA] TT(niel) stalking in Malaysia (110923-110924) pt2

110924 (day of the concert)


reached the stadium late, planned to stalk the boys first but the hotel management didnt allow us. then got lost along the way to the stadium hahaha. by the time we reached the stadium was packed with tons of people and omg the parking in front of the stadium is full T.T i parked further uphill, the car park attendant was taking in rm10 per car, the dem leechers =.=

walked over to the front of the stadium, it was pretty lively there. said hi to friends and KTO booth, then went over inside to find our seat. going in the stadium, we pass the back stage and circle around it (there are barricades surrounding it) to get to the seats. basically back stage is like a row of white tents with names stuck to the front door. so excited when we see the tent most to the left is TT's. haha feel compelled to yell something atm, but that would be dumb XD mentally keep note of their tent.

we were numbered seating in the back section, Block D (to the right), and 3rd row from the front.

the two rows in front of us were VIPs (i mean BigBang fans) and the row behind us were VIPs too. when it looked like the concert was about to start, i asked the people in front of me nicely not to swing anything to block our view during TT perf, and also to bear with our fangirling. they looked confused but otherwise nice about it, i guess they didnt grasp yet how much of a fan we are XD

When it came time for Teentop's performance, we reallyyyyy let it out XD hahaha the girls in front of us were caught by surprise actually leaned forward and closed their ears immediately! haha so now they know how much of a fan we really are. seriously couldnt help ourselves, start screaming and bouncing, and jumping wildly, with our huge placards in the air. it didnt matter that around us was VIPs, we were having the time of our lives XD i checked with the people behind us, but they were fine with our antics, just smiled and told us to carry on (THANKS SO MUCH WE LOVE YOU), so we continued on hahaha

apparently, all the way behind us all of block D can see what we were doing hahaha, (as one person kindly told me after the concert), and some lady with her children was annoyed and complained and thats why the security came over, told us to sit down. yeah, we sat for like a milisecond, and the moment he was gone, we're back to bouncing like god knows what.

of course we never forget fanchants!! hahaha been practicing everyday in the car, lmao~ we screamed our lungs out. we didnt know how many songs they would get, and so we were prepared to see NMPOY, Supa Luv and Clap only, but then after NMPOY came Brushing instead, and we went wilddddd hahaha. i lovveeeeee this song!!! Niel always looks so awesome and his hair is tied ^^ i am forever the pony-tail-niel lover!!

after that was the introduction. CAP said malaysia was hot and so were the fans, hahaha. Ljoe said they would love to come malaysia again. i so do wish you would come again!! we love you! thanks to the MCs who asked the crowd if they wanted to see teentop again, because (i love you malaysian fans!) the crowds yelled a loud YES! teentop must feel so welcomed ^^

after that we started yelling supa luv! supa luv! supa luv!, but instead they did clap first. and omg they did the INTRO too!! hahaha we were rolling around in happiness by then lmaooo i love watching them here, especially baby ricky looks so good ^^ followed by clap, and i must admit, i dont favor the fanchant for clap, but at the end of first chorus 'teentop baksu!!' right between niel's 'clap' hahaha that was fun!

and then we started yelling again supa luv! supa luv! but they continued with Angel!!! omg so surprised i thought never in the world would i ever get to hear them perform this hahaha. most of the time niel sang and he faced generally in my direction. okay my placard is huge and bright, he must be blind not to see it right? every once in awhile he did look my way, but he never did anything....hmmm i wonder why. he did however wave here and there to other areas =.= and at one point in the song he actually walked off to the left and waved that way. hahahaha okay im not super proud of this moment, but we were like super high that time, and yelling unconsciously, so immediately escaped my lips "yah! niel ah!!! oedi e ka?!! wae geure??!!!" hahaha i dunno, i was annoyed he never waved my way =.= boo niel boo why you do this to me?

and my friend beside me was holding an official teentop balloon and ricky spotted it WoW. i mean my placard is like 5x the size of the balloon, obviously can be seen from stage, niel is not blind rite?? =.= hahaha


we as always chanted supa luv! supa luv! supa luv! and Ljoe(?) said 'as u said it, supa luv' XD or something to that extent, i wasnt really paying attention to the others, but basically the meaning is there ^^ they performed the remix version (the one during their last week promotions)

im pretty sure halfway thru TT perf, my voice was leaving me. but we never missed out on all the fanchants ^^ i love supa luv and NMPOY fanchants, and Brushing fanchants sound super loud cos the music is slow. hahaha i hope they heard it ^^

after TT perf is 4 minute, i sat down quietly cos have a headache from all the superior shouting. followed only a bit of the fanchants. they are so pretty, i was picking out which part of their wardrobe i wanna copy (yes my brain works in mysterious ways).

after that was UKISS perf. we were screaming fanchants again wootssss~
it was during the 2nd song i think when my friend from the rockzone msg me saying she saw teentop is packing to leave!!! i became disoriented, because we planned to watch the rest of the show first, or at least get to see GD TOP first before we leave to stalk airport, this was too early!!
when my friend msg that they were definitely packing, we got up and apologized to everyone there and left to the side near the back stage.
this was the tricky part, since we cant actually stay there without calling attention to the guards, but we really didnt wanna miss them leaving, so we were lying thru our teeth and dodging any potential threats. it totally didnt help that some fans saw us there and approached the area and started yelling when they saw FTI and UKISS going into their vans. ughhh the security came and started ordering ppl away again. i'm not gonna be shoo-ed off because of them, so we maintained distance until coast was clear again.

it took a pretty long time cos the front is the luggage truck where they load everyone's bags. it was blocking the other vans, but as soon as the luggage truck was out of the way, the vans could start moving out of the barricades.
saw TT get into their van quietly. they had the lights on inside the van so we can see inside. ricky sat at the back on the left window, or maybe it was changjo?? basically these 2 next to window on the left at the back. i know amongst them all, the most front was chunji (right) and niel (left). only the top media staff woman was sitting in front of them behind the driver, but before she got in the van, can see chunji pulled back his seat so he can lie back and sleep. they turned off the lights then.

the cars started moving, behind the luggage truck was a black van (i heard it was hongki?) and FTI van (why would they b in separate vans? but i cant confirm this cos i was not watching them load), and then 4minute van, followed by TT and UKISS. the truck circled around the area to the back left gate, but was stopped there, so all the vans lined up behind it. we ran to the portable toilets, and luckily, TT van stopped right in front of where we were standing. it was around 10m away? anyways it was pretty dark. me n my sis were jumping excitedly (how do u imagine this?^^) and held up our placards, but dunno if they can see. my sis turned on her phone flashlight and held it against her placard chanhee. since we only see the left side of the van, so can only see niel, ricky, changjo facing outside. i cant tell if they were looking at the concert or at us. my sis was hoping niel would inform chanhee of this bouncing fan outside, but apparently he didnt (haha yea, i dun think niel is the type), and so niel just continued to stare blindly ahead. im like bouncing so much my teeth were shattering, wth is this boy doing to me?? haha
my sis told me to flip my board, show teentop, and she pointed her flashlight at it, and immediately (to our relief and pleasure), the boys began waving at us. bouncing 2x faster now~
there werent many ppl there. actually i only see 3 other girls there and i dunno who they were there for since they carried no placards. so me n my sis were pretty darn obvious with our huge TT placards and unwavering love pouring towards the boys~ hahaha, i kinda hope they would remember us that way.
anyways we stayed til they left, and they waved til the very end (darling boys i love you!!) and then *zoooooooooooooooom* run off to car. yes, the car was like 400-500meters away, and not to mention UPHILL. crappp that was the hardest race i've ever been in!! my legs were burning, and my throat felt like daggers, but i pushed on til i reached the car, and we sped away. the ppl and security outside the concert venue were staring at us like we were crazy. yeah, but its not their life line was heading away towards the airport and out of our lives without a last goodbye.

we got lost around cheras area (AMAZING!! BAKSU BAKSU!!) and then finally found the highway and speed all the way. and to our utter disbelief THANK YOU LORD although there were tons of fans, and the vans were parked, no one has left their vans yet!!!

we went in search of TT van, and i saw the pretty top media staff from the front window. I found it!! and so excited i actually moved forward all the way to their door! haha the security popped out immediately from no where and told me to move back. lmao~ there were a few girls (not many) in front of the van, and they looked pissed that i was suddenly in front of them. they glared at me =.= mianhe. and so my sis stayed back behind them. then 4minute was brought by the idol circle (made by the guards. please refer to part 1 for explanation), and some fans followed but otherwise not many ppl knew of TT's van. some people i overheard thought TT hasnt arrived. and then FTI arrived and lo and behold the girls behind me squealed and left. i rolled my eyes and mentioned my sis over in front. the curtains dont close everything and can see ricky and changjo through the cracks, at the back seat. they waved at us. i wonder if they knew we are the same ppl from the stadium before haha. its the same placard. *staring at rickyyyyy......*
anyways, the front curtain was closed tight. i wonder if its cos chunji just woke up. its about half an hour to the stadium to the airport, i guess he had some sleep. i wanted a peek of niel, but its not possible so i waited.

after 4minute was TT's turn. the idol circle prepared in front of the van door, pushing us further aside. niel came out first, and he started coughing. i know i know niel has been sick for a long while d. its more of a 'im-getting-better-sort-of-but-never-truly-recover-since-i-dont-get-enough-rest' cough. not like he was getting worse. i think ppl who didnt know abt his cough from earlier thought he was only recently sick =.= alright, people listen up! malaysia didnt make niel baby sick okay~

he looked and waved to the niel placards or who ever called out to him, but he didnt look my way!!! i was like OH NO U DONT BB U CANT GO WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE!
so i ran circled around the idol circle and when in front i managed to get him to see me, he smiled and waved, and i managed a split second smile before i nearly ran into the door =.=
in the oval revolving doors, the top media staff's shoes got stuck and they stopped (which made me lag further behind cos my side was stuck), and by the time i reached the other side, there were alot of fans stationed on this side of the circle.
jump, duck, spin, run somemore, avoid flying hands and placards.....yes, it was a mad dash but i just couldnt overcome the wall of fans standing in my way.
end up i was behind the idol circle again. staring at minsoo's tattoo, and changjo's neck. ahhhh replay of the seen during the arrival =.= annoyed. niel getting further and further in front.
my sis was recording, calling out to each member to get them to say hi to her cam. last was cap so she found me there then at the back of the circle, and my friend was there suddenly too, and we 3 started calling out cap CAP CAP!! LEADER CAP! to no avail, so tried bangminsoo BANGMINSOO BANGMINSOOOOO hahah i tell u 3 voices calling out one after the other is pretty amazing. haha cap laughed, didnt turn but lift his hand to acknowledge us. but chunji did turn and laughed!
and we didnt know this at the time, but later saw fancams, showed that changjo also turned to laugh at this. and niel didnt turn but he found it amusing, told ricky abt it and ricky turned to laugh too ^^
haha ricky turning we did see however. somehow its very easy to see ricky ahaha.
we started calling rickyyy rickkyyyaaaa rickkkyyy!!! neomu kwiopda!!! and he actually slowed down for us hahaha. he is such a darling!!!


Tuesday, September 27, 2011

[FA] TT(niel) stalking in malaysia (110923-110924) pt1

I'm such a lazy writer haha. most of my time is spent doing other projects like dancing, sewing, making gifts and decors. T.T but i guess i owe it to myself to write this FA so i can remember Teentop in Malaysia forever ^^

Anyways, before we get started, this FA is not only on TT, but basically my weekend as a whole =p so bear with the useless facts hahaha.

we basically finished TT-NMPOY dance cover. its not really perfect imho, but we were rushing before sandy has to go back study in UK, so we made the recording date earlier than planned. we also recorded alot of behind-the-scenes footage and took stupid pictures in our TT costumes. i edited all the footage plus our NGs into a video, and burned it into DVD to give the boys.

couldnt sleep, too excited knowing TT coming to Malaysia tomorrow. i stayed up finishing my NIEL placard, which also has Teentop on the other side. yeah, its pretty big.

front of placard that say NIEL

back of placard say TeenTop

i also made a small yellow envelop decorated terribly (yes, i never said im a great decorator ahhaha), to put in the DVD. i burned the DVD and wrote a short msg on the DVD top but i never took a pic of it. i made this cd cover picture using our idiot pics.

this is the front cover of the cd~

this is the back

it looked decent enough, finally fell asleep at 3am.

too excited when ppl started tweeting pictures of their departure in the morning. niel in black and carrying a red backpack (mentally memorizing the clothes so i can spot him quickly)

decided to go to airport early. sat around McD while finishing off our TT gift. i put in our signature paper (we did the first one during supa luv dance cover, and i decided to make it our custom to have a signed paper every TT cover).
This is for supa luv cover

This is for NMPOY cover.

also, wrote them a letter, giving encouraging msgs and personal msg for each member. its basically english littered with korean, so im really not sure how much they can understand XD and of course gave our twitter accounts too (just so they know who is spamming them T.T)

by the time they were supposed to come out, there were tons and tons of ppl at the gate. well, since 4minute and FTisland was supposed to arrive with them, i guess there's ntg we can do. i stood next to the escalator opening, first in line. i wanted a clear opportunity to give the gift. i dont carry camera along, because i am always too pre-occupied to take a fancam. T.T sorry.

anyways 4minute came out first, then FTI. i was hoping their fans would run with them, but the guards were sending each group one by one, so the fans ran back and re-joined the crowd, and so the full effect of everyone there was landed on our pretty boys' shoulders T.T

i saw Ljoe's hair first (who doesnt?) coming up the escalator. we started bouncing around excited. it was a crazy feeling knowing they are FINALLY HERE! held up my NIEL placard and hold gift in other hand. i was basically prepared to give the gift to any member available, but chunji and ljoe are not my choice to give it to, (i feel chunji wont be as open to accepting gifts < correct me if im wrong, just my opinion. and ljoe, well ljoe i cant always tell if he's paying attention or not ^^ hahaha) too dangerous to rely on them. i knew ricky was likely to come out earlier rather than later, and would take the gift so i thought let me try ricky and just go with the flow. i dunno y i never thought of giving to niel. i never followed other FA so i dunno how well he receives gifts, and i know i will become totally speechless when i see him.

chunji and ricky reached first, and immediately called out 'ricky-yaaaa' and he looked my way, and i handed him the gift. did a little dance of victory and then focused on finding Niel.

I chronicled the event of gift passing ceremony into the comic below haha

If you follow fancams of Ricky on the day, can see him holding on to the CD so tightly. awwww baby ricky why so cute??

Niel came out the back of the group with changjo and cap (basically these 3 just changed positions amongst themselves throughout the ordeal).
Niel saw me FIRST!! XD well if he didnt see my placard he must be blind, omg its so bright. he smiled and waved and i nearly died of happiness.

it didnt register at the time, but i did see he was on edge and immediately began moving like he was avoiding the crowd (i dun mean this in a bad way. just that he attempts protection by hanging on to cap. unlike chunji was trudges forward like nobody's business and ljoe who walks like he owns the place XD).
it was sooo difficult to walk next to Niel since he keeps changing place T.T after some point, he was in front of both changjo and cap d.
at first i was behind the idol circle (a circle made by the security guards surrounding the boys). and im looking right at the back of cap and changjo's neck.
my friend "Z" this is her first time stalking and she was over excited tapping each of the boys' shoulders.
this is just my opinion, I never ever touch who i am stalking. i feel it is rude and scary to be touched if it were me =.= and so i come close, and look only.
so i was kinda annoyed at the hands coming from every direction and touching the boys and asking for handshakes (or forcing them). even more funny is that one of them is Z and non-stop tapping their shoulders, especially her fav Ljoe, who (poor him) kept turning around thinking someone called him.
at one point Z saw i was right at changjo's back, and she said 'hey dayana, go touch changjo!' i was like 'whaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttt?' =.= no, i didnt of course.
i found my other friend and she called out to cap 'bangminsoo' and because my voice was being all funny i made a pretty weird draggy version 'bangminsoooooooo' and i myself had to laugh at how ridiculous it sounded.
i saw a girl in front called out to niel and he looked and she held up her hand, said 'hi5!' and for a while he appeared confused and he did a hesitant hi5 LMAO.
he did this pretty much throughout the entire walk to the car (its abt 100-200meters to the car), smiling, but appearing to be alarmed at the amount ppl. at one point, it was so crowded, the idol circle couldnt move. somehow chunji started laughing, god knows why 0.0 and the other members laughed too. as the idol circle moved forward i guess niel relaxed more eventually.
i couldnt follow niel, who kept changing places, so i circled around behind the circle and end up on the right side (where there was less ppl). at this point chunji in front with ricky sticking behind him. ljoe walking on the right, niel on the left slightly behind him, and changjo cap behind.
my friend saw opportunity, called ljoe, 'hey ljoe have u seen our dance cover?' i was right next to him and i wanted to cover my face suddenly feel embarrased. i dunno what he replied, cos of all the commotion.
then a girl in front of me fell, and since i was moving forward i nearly went down with her. ljoe turned to look concern. i had a feeling it was the stupid guards who pushed her down, so (I AM SO SORRY FOR THIS PART) i jumped past her and continued walking. we reached the oval doors where the guards managed to block most fans from walking beside the circle, but i managed to squeeze past since ljoe has so much free space =.=
and when i reached the other side i was so tired of being pushed around by the other fans and guards that i yelled out 'OMG who la push me just now you wanna die??' Ljoe turned to me wide eyed and i looked at him mortified that he could understand that =.= awesome.

im not lying when i say i really am right next to Ljoe. i dun have fancam, cos i dun carry around a camera, but i found this:
can tell its me because of the huge placard. I'm in blue, u can see half my body only, the other blue is Ljoe

once we got near the van, fans stopped moving and somehow i was shuffled around alot. at one point i was pretty close to Niel without realizing it, cos i was dying of being pushed around.
Thats me in blue, niel with the red bag. the one is stripes is changjo.

they got packed into their van and the doors were shut, curtains closed, but there were cracks and ppl continued badgering the van, so they moved out straight away.

by this point so tired and hungry, we decided to get some food first and then head out to hotel.

in my mind, i was wondering if ricky was looking at the pics on that cd cover. its pretty hilarious. i hope he showed the other members. that would be awesome!

went to the hotel toilet to freshen up, and wait for them at the lobby. didnt seem like they were coming soon, since ricky tweeted abt being at rehearsal. we heard that FTI was having dinner upstairs so we went up to have dinner.
FTI obviously knew we were there, and pulled a partition to close off where they were sitting but one of the members continued leaning outwards and staring at our group. (im sorry if this part of my story becomes vague since i dun follow FTI and dont know their members except Jaejin who my sis likes). we let the actual FTI fans sit facing the boys and i faced opposite way, so i didnt see for myself everything that happened then, but they said FTI boys were acting funny and continuously stole glances at our table. i know for sure the last part when they got up to leave. they walked past our table so slowly =.= and our whole table (with 11people) became so quiet, everyone pretending not to be a fan, not stalkers, but also cannot breathe or look at them when they were walking past our table. and lastly Jaejin walked past a say 'Hiiiiiii' and suddenly there was a chorus of His and Byes erupting from our table. lol the FTI boys had the decency to look totally composed while they walked away, but another friend who walked past them further down the hall saw them laughing their heads off. yes, i must admit it did sound pretty ridiculous hahahaha.

i became fidgety cos i know by now TT must be coming back. and i really really really didnt want to miss them. my baby NIEL!!! the table of friends didnt want to leave because one of them was media and called down one of the MC (DJYoung) for an interview. i said, okay thats great but i still want to go down. so only 4 of us went down, and JUST IN TIME.
i just barely sat down on the lobby couch when i heard commotion coming up the escalator. apparently all the fans were forced downstairs, and so we were the only ones at the lobby. i jumped up when i saw Niel and his cute pony tail and began pacing like a madman "what do i do? what do i do?"
oh the moment was here, and i could only manage a small Hi when they walked past. the security looked furious at us being there. Ricky was unsure and bowed and waved at us. He looked straight at me and i was wondering if he remembered me for giving the gift earlier. my eyes skipped over to niel and he was staring at me also, waving hello. he was not smiling, rather looking speculative. i wonder what thats abt? i prayed i looked fine =.= but i was dying looking at the pony tail ahhahaah.
just when they were abt to pass us, my sis called out 'chanhee ahhh' and he immediately looked, bowed and waved as he walked pass.
we later discussed that maybe teentop was not sure we were fans or not, since they seemed unsure to greet us. but after the 'chanhee ah' can see their faces were like 'oh rite, knows chunji name, definitely fans.'
uhuksss dying thinking of niel's look. when he looked at me, i seriously cannot breathe, no there was not a chance i could call out his name, feeling as starstruck as i was T.T hahahah

anyways, the rest of the night was hanging out with DJYoung and recorded a video for UKISS kevin and dongho using DJYoung's phone lmao, but i think this is someone else's fanaccount to share, since my only contribution is 'kevin i love you' 0.0 lmao, i couldnt think of what to say really ^^

continue part 2 for concert day and airport departure

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