Monday, November 30, 2009

Introducing.....Team S&D!!

hahah spent friday evening at the studio fooling around with sabrina. it was alot of fun. after i got her loving jerry's new style class, we finally finished one choreo together ^^ so we decided to record it and make our own 1st video!! well, here's the result~~

i'm totally loving this video haha!!
Team S&D rock~~!! ^^

Thursday, November 26, 2009

dance styles..

i've been going to urban groove dance studio for some time now, and i used the unlimited package for a month to try out the different styles of street dances they offer there. i tried a bit of hip hop, popping, locking, breaking, girl style, new style, house, new jack swing, i missing anything here? there is whacking, krumping, all those animation & tricks stuff that go along with popping, and the many things that go along with breaking too. i haven't tried those out, but i need more time i think.

playing around taking different styles is fine, but i find i'm beginning to get confused with the different styles that i'm learning. since i take 3-4classes per day, everyday, by the end of the day, i cant remember what i learned in each class, let along what i'm supposed to remember by the end of the week.

i think it's better to prioritize. find what u love, what ur good at, and focus on that style first. make it ur strong point.

i know they always encourage girl style for girls, because i think this style would come more naturally. but for me, i think i'd rather stick with other styles, more guy-ish styles, u know...that looks more cool, rather than sexy. technically house does not fall into this category, but right now, i'm so in love with it! there's just something so addictive about the fast pace of house music, and i find i'm actually spending the time to research on it. maybe its not as glamorous as the other styles, but i can live with that. hmm...why dont u have a look at watch house dance looks like and make ur own opinion? =)

Friday, November 20, 2009


as I cleaned up for the night, as I always do, my routine of brushing my teeth and washing my face before hitting the sack, I catch a familiar scent. It was a soap, my mom bought awhile back from a convenience store. A hand soap. Honey and milk extracts. But the memories brought forth by this scent are not of a good kind.

It is the scent I remember from the toilets of the hospital room that I stayed in. And when I stayed in the hospital, it stretched for days. Usually more than a week. I remember restless nights, where I strayed into the hospital corridors, trying to find solace. I couldnt sleep. The assault on my kidneys left me weak, and yet I yearn for the outdoors. I need activity. I felt so trapped then, caged behind unlocked doors, unable to leave this captivity created only by my weakness.

I could barely walk, but every few minutes I would rush to the toilet. It was either due to diarrhoea or to vomit. I understand now why the doctors were concerned about hydration. I couldnt keep anything in. And there I was vehemently refusing a drip. I couldnt sleep with one, it agitated me so. I caused so much pain for my parents, as they begged me to cooperate. What is it with being sick that we start thinking irrationally?

Now that I look back, my months in the hospital were full of mistakes, full of irrational decisions. I do not fear death, I fear only pain. I wonder why the mind of mankind can be so weak, so fragile, so easily influenced by other factors. Will this never change? Is it really a part of life on Earth?

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Korean Day out~

Our wonderful sonsengnim, Dr.Kim of FPSK, decided to treat us to a halal korean lunch at bintang walk, starhill gallery.

The restaurant name = KoRyo-Won

Number of people at the lunch = 11

Bill estimation = rm300++

We had a blast and the place was beautiful. And after the meal, we walked across the street to Pavillion to enjoy the christmas decorations there. We also decided to take a bunch of pictures like the bunch of idiot tourists that we are =)

at the UG Groove Session Party~~

some of the photos i took at UG's party....

jessie hehe~

guest judge

the contestants gathered around

joel beginning the session

all smiles from silvya, sabrina jiang and me

amar and han jon testing the dance floor

kiat grooving to the music

sabrina and me

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

and the dust that covers my dear diary..

i swore not to open that chapter in my life again. i didnt want to feel the pain. how is it that this is a totally different situation with totally different people and yet i feel the exact same feelings mounting up inside me...the same crushing force, that i thought once and for all has left me alone.

i am only tormenting myself. and in that sense i am torturing other needlessly. because of my pain. because of my past mistakes. will it always be this way? will i never truly be free from these chains that bind me? i feel suffocated. and yet any attempts from frens to relieve the situation just ends up backfiring on me. its not their fault. they never knew the true situation.

shall i tell them then? would it make a difference if people knew? would it relieve me? no...i dont think so. i guess, things dont change unless you make that change. and i have yet to find the strength for change. oh how i wish to go back to those days when i can be naive and get away with it.. back before the first time i was heartbroken.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

cloudy skies with a little bit of rain

i feel so down these days. I try not to take things personally. I wanna be professional about it and move on. We can be friends. Its just a personal hurdle I have to go through. I have to live with it. I have to buck up and face my fears.

But when I look at you, all that fear comes flooding back in. I dont wanna make this same mistake again. I hope you understand, its not about you. The fear lies within me. And someday I will find the courage to face you again. If you can wait that long, then maybe someday we can talk and look back on this day and laugh about it.

Couple dance workshop!!

hehe today was the day of the couple dance workshop!
it was alot of fun!! It was my first dance workshop. I've never been to one before. I'm glad I came =) it would be such a waste to have missed this.

taught by Jerry and Doris at Sunway Branch Urban Groove.

the song was (Jason Mraz + Colbie Caillat) 'Lucky'. Haha i didnt know u can choreo for a song like this. =p
Not very good at remembering steps though, haha cos we were all rushing through the steps. =)
at least we all enjoyed it. thats wat matters right?
I have the video, but I havent uploaded it yet. I dont want to upload it on youtube, since its not really mine...
but it'll definitely be in my facebook videos, once facebook stops being so mean, and let me upload it haha!

Too bad for you people who didnt wanna join, because it was a great experience!

Monday, November 2, 2009

In my memories...

the empty tank

Alan is gone...My dear soft shelled turtle friend.

My brother decided it was finally time to set him free into the pond near his workplace. I know Alan is not a domestic pet, and the fact that we kept him in a tank is practically animal cruelty (we werent in any way cruel, except I do admit his natural habitat would probably be a gazillion times larger).

We've been with Alan for so long...its been years I think. At least 2-3years, since before I moved to Putrajaya. He was smaller then. He didn't know me well at first.

But this year I spend so much time with him. He watches me every night as I study at the dining room table. He splashes around when I dance with him. when i touch his tank, he would always bite around, with his cute (but dangerous) mouth. I love the way he is so cute and still when he's asleep and u can see his eyes close n head drop slowly.

Ahh he loves apples. I try to make him more carnivorous like me, but he doesnt really like eating the fish. Oh my sweet, how are u surviving out there in the wildlife?

I miss you so much already.

I cant believe we have no pictures of him. No recorded videos. How am I to remember him? I found pictures off the net, of soft shelled turtles....they dont look as cute as Alan, but u get the gist of it.

he was about this a carls jr burger

from above, this is what he looks like. But he was not this color.

Now that he's gone, when I sit at the table and look to my side, all I see are still fish (the ones he wont eat), in a huge empty tank.

Its so quiet in this house without you. Alan.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Party party party~~

oh yeah oh yeah~~ can u believe it? there's gonna be a party this coming saturday. I'm totally going!

there is also on-going free styling competition at the party. i wont join la...obviously because i'm soooo uptight! i cant possibly loosen up enough to dance in front of a bunch of other dancers...i cant even loosen up enough to dance in front of a bunch of non-dancer at a club. hahaha! i'm that bad!

well anyways, of course there will be performances from the teachers. i always love to see the teachers perform. they are sooo good!

oh not forgetting, this friday, there is a couple dance workshop. me and adek are going of course. i was wondering if i should not go, since i'm going so many things already, but she convinced me to take this opportunity. well it doesnt come often right?

First 2/3 of exams are done and only 2 papers left around mid-november. so that means, i still got time to play around haha. gonna sleep late and surf the net?? or i think better yet, get as much needed sleep as possible while i got the time. sunday is my rest day. monday-saturday next week i'm going to dance all week long! its gonna be a long and tiring week but a damned great one for sure!

Its only saturday night, and already i'm hyperventilating thinking about the week to come =)

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